Missing something...

Okay, so I have put some funny things that have happened to me on this blog. However, now I'm going to get a little deep. I definitely won't be like this all the time, but I can't always be happy-go-lucky-my life is roses- attitude.

Here is the scoop:
It has been five years since I have graduated from high school. Crazy how the time flies. My class had 44 people, about even in the gender factor. In these past five years over half are either married/very serious relationships, have children or both. Here's what is bugging me about this:

1.) I have been receiving wedding invites that read my name and 'guest'. Of course I appreciate their kind gesture to include my significant other, but I don't have one. And when I do attend I end up being the third or fifth wheel and having the questions of dating/relationships. My response is typically the same about haven't seemed to connect w/ anyone. Than I divert my attention to the younger kiddos and begin to entertain myself that way. Yes, a 23 yr old has her first dance and last dance of the evening with a 5 yr old neighbor :) Cute, but I'm not sugar-coating it... it does get tiresome. 2.) Some classmates have BUILT HOMES! I went to a house warming party for a classmate last night. She and her hubby had built a home from scratch and was beautiful! I couldn't imagine being married right now AND building a new home. 3 bedroom, garage, 2 bath, and it has a washer and dryer. She asked how I was doing... I am not embarrassed but, definitely not happy with my situation.

-She has furniture... I don't even have a bed frame. I put wood blocks under my bed to get it raised up. If one shifts, well I have a slanted bed until I fix it.
-She has a washer and dryer.... I have a laundry mat about 3 blocks away w/ wifi.
-She has a kitchen w/ pots and pans... I have 1 pan without a lid.
-She has a closet. I have two chairs holding up a broom stick that will hold my cloths.

I suppose all of this will 'make me a stronger person' as my Gma says. But gimme a break... I would like to have some luxury items.

3.) Kids... I don't need them now. I love kids, but I'm too young and too much to explore right now. Plus I'm not married. Just akward when I do see my former classmates checking out diapers and formula. Weird!

For these reasons and the fact everyone seems to be tying the knot or giving birth has actually put me in the minority. There was a fork in the road which everyone else has gone down, but somewhere in there I missed the turn and have traveled on that unknown path like Robert Frost said. I don't know how I feel about that because Mr. Frost was weird. I don't what to be a crazy cat lady... I don't even like cats! I just don't know... lost feeling.

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,

And sorry I could not travel both

And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could

To where it bent in the undergrowth.

Then took the other, as just as fair,

And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same.

And both that morning equally lay

In leaves no step had trodden black.

Oh, I kept the first for another day!

Yet knowing how way leads on to way,

I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh

Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I--
I took the one less traveled by,

And that has made all the difference.