Feelings.

Finals are finished, work has wrapped up (sort of) for the semester, and birthdays/holidays are quickly approaching.  But in this last week a lot has happened.  I am not going to disclose all the details as of right now… I just need a place to put feelings.  

Lyss & Em

This semester has been an emotional roller coaster.  I love each so much, and at a drop of a dime I do whatever they ask.  For this reason and many more I am getting mentally and physically tired.  I just want to be a 24 year old college student that does not need to worry about these things.  I am tired of pep talks that last two hours and seem to go nowhere, tired of the tears, tired to see hurt, tired of 1:00 a.m. calls to see if I can go help.  I just want it to be fixed.  Just to see them sincerely laugh, have self-confidence, and see situations in a positive light.  I understand each day is not 100% peachy, I really do, but people have the ability to turn every negative into a positive.  

I am not sure when or how everything changed, but the excited twinkle in the eyes has vanished.  It troubles me.  I have offered assistance by doing tasks to just simplify lives or offering my apartment for their stay, yet nothing seems to help or solve the problem.  So what will… I am afraid of the answer and am living in denial.  On Wednesday I will see if my fears come true.  

Remember this holiday season to keep loved ones close. Time is precious.